Sometimes I think that maybe I’m being a little hard on reality stars. To be fair, I guarantee that if I were in the same situation – offered millions of dollars to act vapid and superficial, I’d probably get sucked in just as easily. However, as a person sitting on a $400 couch in a somewhat shady area of town who can’t find a college course to crash because there are like, 2 teachers at my university, I still feel like the money being thrown at these Barbies could be better used elsewhere.

And when they fail to recognize how INSANELY LUCKY, how UNFAIRLY OVERPAID they are, I just about lose my mind. Take Kim Kardashian, for example, who reportedly banked $20 million dollars off her wedding to a guy she’d divorce less than three months later. Amid rumors that the marriage was all a scam, she released an open letter to her fans, and boy was it a doozy. I have bolded the best parts for easy skimming.

This is probably the hardest thing I’ve ever had to write. I see all of the support and I am so thankful for my fans, friends and family who are helping me through this difficult time.

I am trying not to read all the different media reports but it’s hard not to see all the negative ones. First and foremost, I married for love. I can’t believe I even have to defend this. I would not have spent so much time on something just for a TV show! I share so much of my life on a reality show, that contemplating whether to even film my wedding was a tough decision to make, and maybe it turned out to not be the smartest decision. But it’s who I am! We filmed Kourtney giving birth, Khloe getting married, break ups, make ups, our best moments and our worst moments. These were all real moments. That’s what makes us who we are. We share, we give, we love and we are open!

Everyone that knows me knows that I’m a hopeless romantic! I love with all of my heart and soul. I want a family and babies and a real life so badly that maybe I rushed in to something too soon. I believed in love and the dream of what I wanted so badly. I felt like I was on a fast roller coaster and couldn’t get off when now I know I probably should have. I got caught up with the hoopla and the filming of the TV show that when I probably should have ended my relationship, I didn’t know how to and didn’t want to disappoint a lot of people.

I’m being honest here and I hope you respect my courage because this isn’t easy to go through. But I do know that I have to follow my heart. I never had the intention of hurting anybody and I accept full responsibility for my actions and decisions, and for taking everyone on this journey with me. It just didn’t turn out to be the fairy tale I had so badly hoped for.

There are also reports that I made millions of dollars off of the wedding. These reports are simply not true and it makes me so sad to have to even clarify this. I’m so grateful to everyone who took the time to come to my wedding and I’ll be donating the money for all the gifts to the Dream Foundation.

I’m sorry if I have hurt anyone, but my dad always told me to follow my heart and I believe now that I really am.

What do you think? Is Kim being legit? Or is this just the bow on the gift of bullsh*t that she (and the rest of reality television) has been bestowing upon us since the very first episode of Real World? Share your opinion in the comments!